Monday, November 16, 2009

Fayetteville police spokesperson Theresa Chance said the body of a child was located about 100 feet off the road. She said Shaniya Davis' family would be called on to make a positive identification, but detectives were waiting for the FBI and State Bureau of Investigation to finish work at the crime scene. The discovery wrapped up a search conducted by some 250 law enforcement officers and volunteers who used dogs, horses, and a helicopter to scour the woods after police got information about where to find the body.

This may be one of the few times I really want to curse!! I ask forgiveness if this blog gets a bit ugly, but I feel in my soul someone need to GO IMMEDIATELY TO HELL for this. I just don't understand how or why someone would give their child over for sex with grown a$$, rusty men. I don't understand why these same grown a$$ sorry men would desire sex with a child of 5. FORGET THE TRIALS, FORGET ALL THE MONEY TO TRY TO DEFEND THESE CREATURES, FORGET WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN JAIL; SOMEONE JUST GET SOME ROPE AND SEND THEIR A$$ES STRAIGHT TO HELL.

I cried when I heard she was found dead. I had prayed she would be alive. Maybe the bums had left her with someone. Maybe someone else had harbored her, but she was alive. My heart broke, it is still breaking for this little one. ARGHHHHH.

RIP little one. I know you are in heaven with the Father and no one can harm you anymore. You are in a better place than we are right now. I pray to meet you one day. I wish I had known you, could have been there to somehow protect you. Alot of people looked for you and even more cried and prayed for you. The world really missed out on an angel.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Addicted to Facebook!!

I know you all haven't seen me in awhile here. I am on Facebook!! I really, really am. It can be so addicting and I am chief addict...LOL. So if you miss me here then just follow the Facebook link on this page, add me as a friend and I will see you there. Not much is going on my way. Still busy with work and family. I went to see Judgement Night in Goldsboro last Friday night and took a group with me and it was awesome to say the least. Powerful play. Everyone who has an unsaved relative should drag them kicking and screaming to see it. There is going to be a judgement and we must determine how we will face that day or night. I left with a strong reminder of just how vast and majestic and powerful God is compared to me. Even when I think I am feeling strong and in control, it is weak and foolishness to Him. How great is His mercy and grace! Things I had given up on, I am strongly reminded that He is not a man that He should lie nor the Son of man that He should repent. I have to echo to my own self that His words will not return void and He will do what He says He will do. In the meantime, who are we, who am I, to doubt Him and run with my own thoughts and my own mind. Remember He said "Let this mind be in you"! Why? Because there is no way of having the mind of Christ, and when He shows us something or teaches us His way we have to be obedient to a point of having a right mindset. Phew!!
Didn't mean to preach this time just got carried away for a moment.
Anyway, I will try hard to update some on this page. Right now the hot news of the day is the prisioners getting released next week. Since I am in the field I am in, I feel for those men and women. Think how society has changed and the statics of going back. That and where do they go? No homeless shelters want them, I know. At the same time I agree that we can't just change the laws at will and keep them in. By NC laws of that day, they have done their time. So that is a hot button item. I will try to post more on that too. If you want to know who is being released then go to WRAL website and there is a listing and photos.

Monday, October 5, 2009

A 55 in a 35

Ok, this is my last, absolute last, rant about the traffic ticket I got. I mean, really I was speeding, I was disobeying NC traffic laws and I should have gotten the ticket. I readily admit that. So why am I still fuming after being stopped several hours ago? Well it is just the thought of having to pay the state and especially this county fees and fines. The officer was nice and he did reduce the ticket for me and I don't even have to go to court, just pay the fines and fees. Yeah that is like $200.00 and maybe that is why I am fuming. I don't know. Its like when you are caught and you know you are wrong but you don't want to face the consequences for it. That is how I am feeling. So I am going to just finish this blog and then let it go and pay the fines and fees. Learn from my lesson don't go through downtown "anywhere" doing 55 no matter how big of a hurry you are in. Especially in Smithfield, NC.

Friday, September 25, 2009

African American are not the ones leading the welfare roles!

I was on a website recently (today) and some ignorant white girl made an ignorant comment. She said something akin to "we should sit on our a$$ and collect welfare like our colored counterpart does." Well I started to comment to her but I refuse to address ignorance as it does little good to educate. In causes arguments and discontent as you really can't take an ignorant person and make them smart. So I decided to just blog it and make it available to who ever dares to read it. I don't know where this person lives but blacks are out in full force in the workplace. I don't walk into many businesses and not find several black men and women working. Long gone is the "token" black. You know that "one" to make things look good. Blacks are taking commanding roles and are valuable to any industry or business venture. I, myself, am in a management position and most of the "business" people I deal with on a daily basis are black. Still, let me debunk the myth that caused me to post this. Blacks on the welfare roles. I checked some statistics and here is what I found. A google search will give you the same results.

Myth: People on welfare are usually black, teenage mothers who stay on ten years at a time.

Fact: Most welfare recipients are non-black, adult and on welfare less than two years at a time.

According to the statistics, whites form the largest racial group on welfare; half of all welfare recipients leave in the first two years; and teenagers form less than 8 percent of all welfare mothers.

Blacks comprise only 12 percent of the nation, but, according to the above figures, they comprise 37 percent of the welfare rolls. This should not be surprising; in 1994, blacks had a poverty rate of 33 percent. We should not, of course, think it unusual to find poor people on welfare. Consequently, discussions of race and welfare must turn on different issues.

For those who want to do their own research, here is a good starting point:

Now simple math (let go with simple because ratios and medians and averages maybe too complicated to small minds) says that if blacks only comprise 37 percent of the welfare roles then...duh...63percent must be NON BLACK.

I knew there was still some ignorance in the world but please don't go opening your mouth spewing it so others know without doubt just how ignorant you are. Quit using race as a reason to hate a black president. You would look better just to say you dislike him based on race than to keep trying to put blacks and other groups down to disguise your racism. Your sheets are showing plain and simple.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

This is just the most sickening thing I have heard in a long long time.

Mackenzie Phillips, the eldest daughter of the late John Phillips, frontman of the Mamas and the Papas, says her father raped her and that they later carried on a consensual incestuous relationship

Yes that is right, in case you haven't heard, Mackenzie Phillips the former child star of One Day At A Time came forth on Oprah saying first her famous father raped and it then turned into a consentual sexual relationship that lasted a decade!! She said she is coming forth because she knows she is not the only one this is happening to or has happened to.
My mind is going crazy!!! How can anyone consent to sex with their father? There is no amount of alcohol or drugs that could make me want to do that. Give me a truck load of booze, a ton of any drugs and at the end of it all I would NOT want to have sex with my own dad!!!
Yet, unless one is in the situation it is hard to pass judgement so in all fairness to her I will say that: I believe her, and I feel sorry it had to happen to her. If in fact what she feels is correct (not being the only one) then she is doing a brave thing to put a face to it and come forth.
Its still sick tho.

Sunday, September 20, 2009


On my way out the door for church. I am giving the message I posted last night. I tell you the truth...this is a powerful word for me. If you have a vision or dream in your heart from God, take the time to read and study this Word. It is a Word in due season. I pray you are blessed and favored today. May God's light shine upon you.

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Saturday, September 19, 2009

I am NOT a grasshopper, neither are you

I will be ministering this sermon this Sunday and thought I would give all of you a preview. In Numbers 13 Moses chose his top leaders to go and spy out the promise land. This was a pivotal moment for the Hebrews as they were just a few miles from the promise land and it was at this junction that Moses hoped to enter it. His hopes would be dashed by the leaders. The 12 was gone for 40 days and returned with the report that "we seem as grasshoppers to ourselves and thus must look that way to them, they are giants" (my version). Only two, Joseph and Caleb said "we can take them, lets go immediately" (my version again). What is astonishing is that the top leaders who should have demonstrated great faith discouraged themselves and also the Hebrews. Needless to say they all became doomed to wander in the wilderness for 40 years and none of them except Joseph and Caleb ever saw the promise land.
There is going to be a time (it might be now) where your faith will be challenged. The enemy of your soul will no doubt show you all the "giants" around you. You will hear from the naysayers, you will feel you are not capable, not qualified, barriers in the way and that call of God is questioned because you see your own lack! How you will end up on the other side of your faith will depend on your attitude and answer to God. Will you tell him how inadequate you are? Will you trust God as you remember all the things He has done thus far? Will you teeter on the edge of victory for 40 years?
I challenge you to dive into this story and learn a fast lesson. Remember your faith can be as small as a mustard seed to move a mountain! But what will your attitude be? I asked myself this question with several things I am facing and my answer was and remains: I am NOT a grasshopper. I am more than a conquer, I can do ALL things thru Christ who strengthens me!!

Monday, September 14, 2009

Patrick Swayze Has Died

Patrick Swayze has died after a nearly two-year battle with pancreatic cancer.

Swayze's publicist Annett Wolf says the 57-year-old "Dirty Dancing" actor died Monday with family at his side. He came forward about his illness last spring, but continued working as he underwent treatments.

I actually liked his acting and he died so young. RIP Patrick!

Friday, September 11, 2009

I wrote this for a blog shortly after 9-11 and am reposting today in memory.

***I actually wrote this blog a few weeks after 9-11 and thought I would repost it this morning in memory of those who have suffered not only on that day but are still suffering with the war and the after effects. I continue to pray for those who lost family and dear friends. I also still cast a jaundice eye at former president Bush and that administration.

I wanted to take this time to express my heartfelt sorrow for those lost on 911.
I have a son born on this day and so as we celebrate his birthday and life, it is easy to forget that so many lost lives on this day. I assure you those in my family remembers this day as a day when America got a wake up call.
It is not strange to know and see hate in the world. Many are hated for race, creed, national orgin and other things that we think defines a person. Then there are small ways that hate runs rampet. Such as education, social classes, health care, schools etc.
America has had its own share of innocence blood being shed because of hate. And on Sept. 11,2001 someone decided to show America hate.
The one thing that arose out of the ashes was a commitment to Jesus or to a God. People wanted to pray with each other as never before. No one wanted to hate their neighbor that day in time. But I read somewhere since then that most of those shared moments have faded. I sure pray not.
I want to extend a plea to the family and friends of those who perished in 911 to remember that your loved ones did not die in vain. To extend to them a time to show love and prayer to a nation that needs it...America. I want to ask you to extend to your neighbors, co-workers and family the 'dream' of equality and love. As I extend this ministry and a personal prayer to you, please reach out to others in the same manner.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

You Lie!!

Democrats and Republicans alike are denouncing Rep. Joe Wilson for shouting "You lie" at President Barack Obama during his speech to Congress, an extraordinary breach of decorum for which the South Carolina Republican swiftly apologized.

I could really jump all over this like flies on (you know what) but I will use a bit more decorum unlike Joe Wilson. Joe, wtf!!! WTF!!! Are you so embittered at this black man that he has caused you to lose all you *cough* "decorum?" I dare say you would not have or have ever done this to your white counterpart. I am shocked and disappointed that a member of congress would show such lack of tack and racism and yes it is racism. You are part of an institution that just has to rear its ugly head and you have brought it all the way to the congress. Well, get over yourself buddy, the TRUTH is every politician LIES and that includes you. You can be thankful no one has shouted it out to you on the floor. I am all for healthcare reform and I am backing President Obama on this one. I wish he would pay you naysayers no mind and quit for God sake trying to get you all to agree with him and like him. Let this be yet another glaring example to him that "they don't like you".

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

I am sitting here thinking (again)about President Obama (again) and this time its about his speech to school students. I am glad that my influence on my young charge caused her to decide to go to the speech. She is in high school, not much into politics and she said she "almost didn't go" but she went. When she came home, she was so excited. "Mrs. Cynthia," she said, "Did you see the Presidents address to students?" to which I said I had. She continued for another 30 minutes about how excited she was, and how she can do anything in life, and it made her feel good, it made her think. I listened and it occurred to me that she nor any of my sons have ever come home so excited about a speech in school!!
I applaud the President for his speech, his care and concern. Of course the haters and nay sayers are going to say he did this for political gain. Well there may be a handful of students who will be old enough to vote in 2012 but far more will not so I don't feed into that. I think those students who did not listen in was deprived of a great opportunity to participate with the country and their president. Perhaps those students have super wealthy parents who can afford life coaches for their children. For the rest of us, I think it was powerful!!
Hell, it inspired me. I am surely going to return and finish my degree and go up a step further. I say job well done President Obama. If I could just convince you to stop looking to the other side for support!!

Friday, September 4, 2009

Something to ponder

Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal.

Hi Everyone! What a thought huh?

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Would you? Really?

I think most of us genuinely want to do good in our lives and certainly do things that we know is pleasing to God. Right? Ok, I did say "most" of us, there are some who are atheist, or simply don't give a da--! I am not talking to those ones right now.
There is a story in the bible where a man asked to follow Jesus and he said he wanted to wait until his father died to bury him (I assume the old man was sick and dying) but Jesus said no let the dead bury the dead. Another man also wanted to follow Jesus and asked how could he become a "follower" to which Jesus told him to go and sell all that he had and then come follow him. There was a third person but I forget right now what his excuse was. Anyway I was thinking of the second person. What if God said I want you to become a disciple of mines but first you must do...??? (you fill it in and don't make it something easy for you to forsake either) (for me-I thought of my own comfort zone). Would I be willing to trust Him and forsake things I consider sure and comfortable to me? I really gave it some thought. My answer (and I hope yours) is yes. I would forsake what I consider is sure. I would forsake what I think of as comfortable. I would venture into whatever God wanted me to do. For me that is a challenge because I HATE surprises as I like to know the game plan before we enter then game. It is not easy for me to go into the game not knowing what the plan is. But for Jesus, yes I would. How about you?

Sunday, August 30, 2009

The Word Of God Is Sure.

The Word of God is sure. Stand firm on the Word He has spoken to you and do not let doubt enter your mind. Nothing is impossible for him. Impossible for you and I but not Him. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. That is my word for this morning and I wanted to share it with you.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

I Almost Let Go...

I have been in a praise mode for a few days now and today this song has been in my head and certainly around my heart. I wish I could play the music with it but it doesn't matter. Just read the words and let them minister to you. I am sure others besides me can relate!

I almost let go.
I felt like I just couldn't take life anymore.
My problems had me bound
Depression weighed me down.
But God held me close, so I wouldn't let go.
God's mercy kept me, so I wouldn't let go.

I almost gave up.
I was right at the edge of a breakthrough but couldn't see it
The devil really had me;
but Jesus came and grabbed me,
And He held me close,
So I wouldn't let go.
God's mercy kept me,
so I wouldn't let go.

So I'm here today because God kept me.
I'm alive today,
only because of His grace.
Oh, He Kept me,
God Kept me,
He kept me,
So I wouldn't let go.

I almost Let go.
I felt like I just couldn't take life any more,
My problems had me bound,
depression weighed me down,
God held me close
So I wouldn't let go.
God's mercy kept me,
so I wouldn't let go.

So I'm here today because God kept me.
I'm alive today, only because of His grace.
Oh, He Kept me, God Kept me, He kept me, So I wouldn't let go

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Encouraging Word


I got an email today from a friend who is tired of "waiting on the Lord". It's not that she wants to backslide or lose her salvation, she is just weary in well doing. I understand how she feels. If you have been praying and waiting for an answer from God it can try your faith. If God has given you a word of prophesy then it could be even harder because He don't always come forth with that word when we want. It seems to "tarry" for awhile. I want to encourage you to think of things that has transpired in your life and weigh it out to see if God has not steadily move your forward to your dreams and visions. If not..pray. God can never lie, His Word will not return void and His timing is perfect. "Tho it may tarry, it shall come." Meditate on that today, as it is coming.

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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Law vs Grace

The Law vs Grace

In the Law we find:

1.God prohibiting and requiring ministry of condemnation
2.Curses Kills
4.shuts every mouth before God
5. Great and guilty distance between man and God
6.'an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth'
7.'hate thine enemies'
8.the law says Do and live
9.Law never has a missionary
10.Utterly condemns the best man
11.Law is probation
12.Sheep die for the Shepard

In Grace we find:

1.God beseeching and bestowing
3.Redeems from the curse, makes alive
4.Opens every mouth to praise
5. Makes quilty man draw to God
6.'resist no evil, but whosoever shall smite thee on the right cheek, turn to him the left also.
7.'bless them that hate you'
8.Grace- believe and live
9.Grace is to be preached to every creature
10.Grace freely justifies the worst
11.Grace is favor
12. Shepard died for sheep

To try to mingle the two in current teachings of today spoils both; for law is robbed of its terror and grace is robbed of its freedom.

Family Photo Album

I hope this link works for you all. I posted some family photos on facebook and I don't want to have to do that job all over again!! I was scanning old photos and it took all day. Will be back later to post some more. Enjoy! Oh and don't laugh, or at least don't laugh out loud.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

I have absolutely nothing to say other than I had to bump that ugly pic down the page!!! It is a cute pic but I redid it in Pacasa and something went wrong in the editing process.

Canceling My Plans...

That was the message this morning. Canceling ones plans so God can enact His own. Boy did that hit home. So I got a few plans I need to cancel and move out of the way so God can do what He wants to do. The other part of the message way: I can't stay where I am, I can't go back, so I must move forward. It felt like the pastor had followed me around all week. I have come to realize that life without God is vanity. Now those are not my words, but I have come to understand the meaning. It is fruitless to do anything if God is not in it. I am glad to say that I have learned to ask of God. Sometimes the answer is yes and sometimes no, but either way He has to be in it. There are things I find myself after but if it is not pleasing to God then what have I gained? Not a thing. Trouble. So yes, I am on a plan canceling mission.

Thursday, August 20, 2009


Well this morning I have two clients I need to take to Durham. It promises to be yet another busy day. I trust all is well with you all. I will be back online later tonight to catch some things up so stay tuned.

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Monday, August 17, 2009

I had to get this off my chest!! For Obama.

Dear President Obama:
First I voted for you and it is important you realize that. Second we are both Leos and you should know that too as this may get a bit heated. So here it is: I wish you would "man up" against the republican party and quit trying to reach across the aisles to them. They don't like you. They are trying every under handed and over handed move they can make to make you look bad and it is working. I just have to tell you, they are not your friend. No matter how many Football Parties you have or how much beer you share with them, they don't like you. Now as for you and me: You see a need for health care, so do I and since I recognized that you did too, I ran to the primaries and on election day I made it my business to show up and vote and made even my sons to vote. The one reason was health care. I defended you on that god forsaken conservative hell hole of a website called where a bunch of folks with no money try to earn some online and bash you in the process. I defended you so much they banned me!! I don't care, at least they got the message. So why now, with a house and senate democratic majority are you bowing down to the low-life republicans who we both know are getting their marching orders from none other than rush limbaugh? They don't like you. We do and to be honest with you, you are not going to garnish not one more vote from that side trying to reach across the aisles than you have now. You should be thinking of those who voted for you, those who shed buckets and buckets of tears for you when you won, and those who don't even have the common sense enough to know how to vote. They are all looking to you.
Lastly, please quit with the town hall meetings! People are showing up with guns who don't like you. OK? The internet is fine and will work just as well and those gun toting red necks can shoot at the computer monitors and not you. Do some online town hall meetings for God sakes. Learn a lesson from the Bush playbook!!
Tell Michelle and the Kids hello for me. I am a bit exasperated right now but I still love you all as the first family.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Welcome again family and friends

I've sent several invites to my family and friends to come to this blog to read my sermon that I did today. Hope you all enjoy it as much as I did. Also I have some I have done in the past and I will be posting them real soon. God has given me alot of insightful thoughts lately, things that make you think. I will be sharing them soon. Much love to you all...Cynthia

This is the message I preached this A.M.

This was my message this morning. Hope ya enjoy it as much as I did!

Fight Like A Girl

Scriptures: Judges 4:4-10 4:12-24
1 Corinthians 1:26-27
1 Samuel 1:1-19
Luke 18:1-8

My title for this message is “Fight Like A Girl”
I am sure most of the men in the room has heard this on the playgrounds at some point in their lives. It is meant as an insult to say the boy is somehow weak. Most girls will roll their eyes and walk away with a bit of indignation when they hear this term. Instinctively or perhaps from experience with their mothers they know to “fight like a girl” is not always a cute tap here and there.
In fact to imagine fighting like a girl brings images of slapping, biting, hair pulling, yelling, screaming, scratches, broken finger nails, eye gorging and down right bloodshed. To Fight Like A Girl can be downright vicious.

You, right now, in your seats (and me too) are on the battlefield. Sometimes we think we are on the playgrounds of life but we are not. We are in battle. And no offense to the men in the room but we are fighting like men. Logical. We stand in the sidelines of our churches and huddle to discuss ways of beating the devil. Every now and then if he strikes us first we hit back, a blow for a blow. Then its back to the huddle again, while the devil attacks us in other ways.
Women, too, are taught to be tough, to have some backbone. Some even learn to box and wrestle like a man. We too try to be logical and politically correct in fighting. But today I tell you its time to fight like a girl! There's a lot of things we need to do “like a girl” and one of them is fight. If time permits I will tell you of a few others too.

Read Judges 4:4-10 and Judges 4:12-24

Deborah and Jael knew how to fight. Deborah had prophetic insight to know the battle was coming. Jael knew she had to choose a side and take a stand. Barak understood girl fighting. He refused to go into battle w/o Deborah. She was not the likely candidate to enter battle either. She was a woman and she lived in a time when women were not thought to be warriors. In fact it is believed that some Jews and other cultures actually prayed and praised God for not being born a woman but instead a man because men were thought of as blessed and powerful.
Most of us are not thought to be warriors either. We are:
Old and Feeble
Have spotty pasts and criminal records
Bodies compromised from years of drinking, smoking, drugs, etc.
Uneducated and Unqualified
Some unattractive, etc.
But we see in 1 Corinthians 1:26-27 that we are indeed God's top 10 for warriors. When God calls us we are all these things and so much more. Yet he uses our weaknesses to confound the wise and mighty.
We are front line soldiers for God, but we have to remember who our enemy is. The devil is not playing with you and I, He means business and we must mean business too. I challenge you (if you are a male) to fight like a girl and (if you are a female) to remember how to fight. When the devil walks up to you and tries to tempt you or challenge your faith, it is not the time to sit on the sidelines in a huddle. Scratch his eyes out, pull his hair, break a few fingernails, yell and scream for God and make him think twice before he comes picking at you again.
Next you need to count like a girl. Barak counted like a man, logical. He counted 1 undefeated general + 900 chariots + a huge army and he came hesitated. Deborah counted the same but she did girl count.
1 undefeated general + 900 chariots + a huge army + our little army + God = Victory!!
She understood that if God be for you then who can be against you! She understood one divine intervention from God could turn a mighty man into a milk drinking, rug hiding, tent peg pin cushion for one little woman.
What are you adding up today. Count like a girl.
Rent + sickness + mistreatment + brokenhearted + no money + God = Victory!! Amen.

Lastly learn to pray like a girl.
Girls will tell anyone, anywhere, anytime, over and over and over and over what is wrong. You don't even have to ask. They just need to see you have ears and they will begin to tell you what is wrong and why. Hannah was this girl.
1 Samuel 1:1-19
She was relentless, she didn't pray a one time, cure all prayer. She had God's ears and she went to Him every year with what was wrong and a broken heart. She didn't pray an eloquent, loud, flashy or even awe inspiring prayer. She prayed her heart. Many times we have many words coming from our mouths but little from our hearts in prayer.
Believe it or not Jesus taught us how to “pray like a girl”.
Luke 18:1-8
Persistence and determination. Its not that God can't hear. He can and does. Its like with Hannah, it was painful, deep in the heart, and only God could do something about it. It said that she meant business, that if God didn't change the situation it was not going to be changed and it demonstrated her relentless faith.
Finally Hannah grabbed a word and a Word grabbed her. Eli gave Hannah a word and she took hold of it and she let the Word take hold of her. I've no doubt that many of you have had a prophetic word spoken to you, or you have heard from God Himself give you a word, or you instinctively know what God has said to you or concerning you. Even when God is chastising us, we are not in the dark on it, He has at some point told us so. Hear His word to you today. Revisit a prophetic Word you were given. Be as Hannah, remind God of His Word, let Him know you have faith in that Word. Let Him know you are persistence, that you care, that you are available, that you love Him.

A Bishop friend of mines had a daughter who had a heart condition. Her mother, his wife, had died of the same condition. One day her heart failed and she was taken to Wake Med and then to Duke. She lay on life support for weeks w/o a heart in her chest. She was waiting on a heart transplant. I sat a many days in church watching this Bishop preach and testify of his daughter in the hospital. I remember him saying one day he was praying for her and God gave him a Word. He would say “now all I have is a Word and a Promise”. He was so convinced of that Word and Promise that he would make us say it. Whatever we came to church burdened with he would always tell us to tell God all we had was a Word and a Promise. I want you to know today his daughter is alive and well and in good health.

Lets move forward in our battles with prayer, and a will to fight and please Fight Like A Girl.

Here I am going off to church this morning. I am sore as can be but I have got to preach a message and it is good!! It is called "Fight Like A Girl" and it is awesome so I guess sore or not, I have got to go. I once asked someone to pray and they didn't want to so I said "o.k. you know there are times when we want God to do things for us too and maybe He don't "feel like it" but we hope and pray He does. That should be the way we think of Him too." So this morning sore or not, I have to follow my own advice and follow through.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Surgery Update

Surgery went well. I am tired of going under the knife however!! I hope this is the last. I am a bit sore but that was to be expected. I am glad to have had the surgeons I did @ UNC Chapel Hill. A really wonderful hospital and they are really trained. They give you a shot now before the I.V. to numb it up, for me it didn't make much difference since I am stuck two/three times always. The surgery lasted an hour so that wasn't so bad either. I am home now, still a bit woozie but doing well. Thanks for the many well wishes.

Getting Ready to Go for Surgery

I am waiting on my son, so I can go to Chapel Hill and have this god aweful mole removed. Actually I may miss it when it is gone!! I have been on facebook, seems all my friends and family are there. I like myspace better, but none of them seem to know how to use myspace! So if you are looking for me then that is where I am. Beware however, I have two profiles there. One I did years ago and it is aweful and one I did a few months ago. Just find the cute picture of me. I don't have time right now but I will provide the link to it later. I also have been on Blackplanet, which I find very flatminded and not too edifying and people I know on there are all incognito, they don't want anyone to know they are on there. So there you have it. I'll be back on later, if I can to update.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Well here I am getting ready for church. Today is going to be a wonderful day. I can feel it. I didn't get much sleep last night, too much on my mind, but I am going to release it all today!! So its a new day and a new week coming that is going to be busy, busy, busy!! Later.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Just a Few Thoughts.

Today has been a pretty good day. I got some work done and am always proud when I can clear my desk a little bit. I was just sitting here after showering and ironing clothes for church tomorrow and I was thinking of something in the Bible. There is the story in Hosea where his wife ran off and "went after other lovers" and at one point the Lord God said he would "allure her back". I was thinking of that. Our nature and thoughts would have said "forget her" or some men would have tried to kill her for "whoring after other lovers", even my own response would have been one of anger. But look at God's love and compassion and how indeed "His thoughts are not our thoughts." He said he would "woo" her back. He was showing that everlasting, unimaginable love and concern. How this is so like God and not at all like us!! We are so quick sometimes to condenm someone we even think is in the wrong when in fact we should be showing a form of Godliness that would "Woo" a person to God and not run them away!! I can only hope that my actions would follow His example. Just a thought for you to think about.
Hope everyone's day is good and I will be back bloggin some more next week. Oh, I have to have surgery next week and then the week after I have to show up for jury duty so I may be a bit tired and not on line much.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Whitney's New Album

Looks like all the Whitney fans out there couldn’t wait and Clive decided to push the album up to an August release date. Whitney’s new highly anticipated album “I Look to You” will be released on August 31st instead of the original date, Sept. 1st. Whitney also has an ABC Special about her comeback that will be released in August as well. And if that wasn’t enough you can also get the title track for free on her website!

I love it when things like this catches my eye. You all know I would pounce on this one:

North Korean leader Kim Jong Il has pardoned two jailed American journalists and ordered their release following an unannounced meeting with former President Bill Clinton, media reports said Tuesday.

Clinton traveled to communist North Korea on a mission to try to secure the release of Americans Euna Lee, 36, and Laura Ling, 32, reporters for former Vice President Al Gore's Current TV media venture who were arrested along the Chinese-North Korean border in March and sentenced in June to 12 years of hard labor for illegal entry and engaging in "hostile acts."

Clinton's meeting with Kim would be the notoriously reclusive North Korean leader's first with a prominent Western figure since Kim reportedly suffered a stroke a year ago, sparking questions about the future of the nation he controls with absolute authority.

Though Clinton was in North Korea on a private basis, his visit was treated by North Korea as a high-profile visit, with senior officials — including Kim Kye Gwan, the vice foreign minister who serves as the country's chief nuclear negotiator — meeting him on the tarmac.

Is my mind the only one screaming that good ole Kim wants PUBLIC RELATIONS!!! And why in God's name are we even addressing them?? How many slaps in the face can one nation take? They don't like us, they don't give a rats baby a$$ what we think, they certainly are not afraid to disobey a "command" from any of our Presidents!! So why are we now engaging them? Because one of the prisoners sister happens to be Lisa Lings sibling? I like Lisa Ling but I have to wonder if it were say Reporter "Demetrious" or "Dominique" would we be expecting a former president to show up with such rebellion to negotiate a release? Betcha this: we will eventually concede to their demands (current disregard) and agree to their having nuclear weapons (which they do have) or we will concede that they are the second world power fast approaching the number one slot. I sure as he (hockey sticks) don't see us running over to get their weapons and take down their dictator. Perhaps the word "fear" comes to mind or as my "plain" brother and sisters would say "They ain't playin that".

Saturday, July 25, 2009


Serious Q's


Take this survey

Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
No, shaving my head would not help them.
What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
Cry my eyes out.
Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
As of today, NO.
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
No, and I don't usually try very hard to.
Are you wasting your time on someone?
Hard to say right now
Explain the lasy time you threw up:
was sick with a stomach virus
Last thing that made you cry:
Missing someone dearly
Do you have a bad temper?
Not at all, but when I am mad, I am MAD
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
Why not?
How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
oh, about, let's see 8
How often do you think about suicide?
What is your deepest fear?
Being old and bitter.
Do you REALLY love all your family?
Yes, I do.
What do you want to believe in?
Love again
Do you have a secret crush on someone?
No, he knows! But there is another guy I think is cute!
Are you proud of who you are?
Yes for the most parts
Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?
Not unless I am missing someone
What is the worst thing a person could do to you and still be forgiven?
Anything really, I forgive easily these days.
You're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?
Love you gurl your worst enemy?
Do you care if people hate you?
Not really anymore
Freedom or safety?
Think of a random person, and give them a message here, no names:
Do what you say, say what you mean. Don't scratch where you don't itch and always be yourself
Has a song ever made you cry?
Yes, "Take It To The Limits" by the Eagles
A book ever made you cry?
Yes, "When Rabbits Howl" by Truddi Chase
Is the world crumbling to pieces?
Name on moment where you couldn't control your rage:
Child abuse
Name one moment where you sincerely wanted to just die:
When I divorced, thank God I didn't
For the last one, just say anything you want, anything at all:


MySpace Surveys

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Having a relaxing evening at home

Like most of the country, I am home listening to President Obama speaking on health reform. I happen to agree with alot of what he is saying. Insurance is just so expensive and then the coverage is minimal. Basic medical needs have become "elective". Really? Since when is a medication that can prevent a heart attack or further damage considered "elective". Then there are those (mostly greedy employers) who thinks its unfair that they are required to pay for health care but they don't see any wrong in lining their pockets at the backs of employees who are at the bottom of the pole. There are some things that are basic and I don't mind paying my fair share. Case in point: President Obama 'attacked' sin taxes to pay for child health care to the tune of some 8 million dollars to ensure otherwise uninsured children. The taxes were geared at what is known as "sin" ie. cigarettes, alcohol, gambling, etc. Well I am not a drinker and I don't gamble but I do buy a pack of cigarettes once a week (yes, I am trying to quit) but I am not mad at the excess taxes. Get over it people. This country has alot to answer for and not only that there is much "correction" to be done from years and years of abuse and neglect on the part of this country. Health care is but a small portion of the equation. IMHO.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Wake deputies have been spotted using a black Chevy Corvette Z06 to pull over speeders on Interstate 40. Among the fastest production cars in the world, the Z06 has a base sticker price of $74,875 and a growling V8 racing engine that turns out 505 horsepower.

Being an admitted speeder and all around road hog, I was a bit suprised and shocked and yes hurt to see this news story. I have made great efforts to slow my little behind down but my car refuses to obey. So I can forsee a few speeding tickets in the future!! I am not too worried however, because I don't use I-40 that much unless I am going home for a visit or really need to get to Raleigh. Shhh...I use 70 most of the time. Now I know all of you (family and friends) are laughing your butts off because all of you...and I mean all of about my driving. I have been known to take a three hour trip and make it in two hours. Oh well. That speeding bullet on your bumper is probally me.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

My sound off for President Obama

"I love the folks who helped get us in this mess and then suddenly say, 'Well, this is Obama's economy,'" the president told an outdoor crowd at Macomb Community College, veering off his scripted words. "That's fine. Give it to me. My job is to solve problems, not to stand on the sidelines and harp and gripe."

This is a quote from President Obama on his plans to dedicate 12Million dollars to community colleges to prepare the unemployed for a new job market. I happen to agree with President Obama that with many jobs going "green" and that field being wide open, we will need people trained to do it. I am sick of the naysayers blaming him for the economy and the mess the former Bush Administration got us into. And yes, yes, yes, Clinton did leave us with a surplus!! America has always had debt and been in a deficent. What else is new. I am very proud of President Obama for taking on the challenge of the economy and not cower like Bush did.

One more thing...I am sick of the Media referring to the President as Mr. He has earned his title and should be respected by the use of his title. No one dared call Bush "Mr. Bush", he was always "President Bush". Now I hear Obama referred to "Mr. Obama" more than "President Obama". That sickens me. It reminds me of those same Media who referred to the victims of Katrina as "refugees". So let me say it America: It is Mr. President or President Obama. Mr. Obama ran for president and won. From now on his title is President even when he leaves office. Thats my sound off for today.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

I am on this road, this walk, that calls me to follow the Lord of my youth, Jesus. I know I am headed that way, but like everyone, satan is watching and tossing things my way. The goal? To confuse, to steal, kill and destroy. Oh yes, he definately wants to take me out. Still, God keeps rescuing me and standing me on my feet again. On that walk, He is there beside me, in front of me and sometimes behind me, pulling me to the finish line. Rooting for me, telling me I can do all things through Him that strengthens me. He reminds me of His saving grace, His undying love, His awesome power and He resounds in my spirit that He (alone) is the Author and Finisher of my faith. He has saved me, is saving me and will save me. I am not alone. When I am confused, He is not. When I am unsure, He is confident. When I am scared, He is brave. He never puts me in a fight to lose the fight, He puts me in it, tells me to stand still and watch Him win it. That is the God of my youth. That is my Lord today. I am reminded of this as I face challenges in life and make decisions that affect my life. Jesus must be first in my life. Though I claim chief of sinners status, like Paul, I am also aware that He (God) has made me to stand. When Jesus stands up for me as my advocate the jury says guilty but the Judge says not guilty. I put my trust and faith in Him.

Friday, July 10, 2009

The Midnight Hour

Most of my friends and family know I am a thinker. I meditate on things all the time. So this afternoon, I am washing clothes, cleaning my room and preparing for the weekend that promises to be semi busy. While doing all of this, I am watching Twilight Zone on the laptop. It got me to thinking of the "Midnight Hour." Have you ever heard someone say "If he/she can just make it through the night?" I have to and I understand that when there is heartache and sickness, it is the midnight hour that is the hardest to get through. Some consider it the "terrors" of the night. I can agree that during those times it does feel like an unnatural terror. However, I was thinking of that Midnight hour and what it really means. Midnight is one minute of a 24 hour day that is actually a time of transition. It is the ending of one day and the beginning of another. It is a time when the past becomes just that, the past. It is an opportunity to begin a new day. It is a time when dawn is not yet, but it is near. You can look for the dawn, the light of a new day. Midnight has been deplicted in films as a scary time, but in essence it should be a time of quiet resolve that the day is gone and a new day begins and always, always, where there is life there is hope.

I have 'midnight hours' and I admit it is not fun when those times come. But I am realizing that with those dark hours it is a revelation to me that it is also just the dawning before a new day. I have avowed to make each day better than the one before it. What can't be changed is not worth meditating on unless it is a revisit of the past to not make those same errors over again. With each new day is another chance to get things "right." Why not change the way we view that "midnight hour?" I sure will.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

My other presence on the web

I promised to update this page and add links to my other pages and tonight I am keeping my word. If you wonder what I am up to when I am online then these sites should help answer your questions. (user name is Ladycwellsusa)

That is enough for now. Actually it is all I have for now. Some of these have blogs but some of them are set to private and you will have to get my permission to view.

Michael Jackson

RIP Michael Jackson

I admit I was not a "big" Michael Jackson fan after the Thriller album. Too much surgery and accusations and unanswered questions and bizzare behavior for me. Still he was a music genius and should be respected and remembered as such. So here's to you Michael, rest in peace.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

We did it AMERICA, we have made history!!!! Congratulations to Obama and Biden on this monumentus achievement. Now do us proud, lead us, guide us, be our President and Vice President not in name only. Show the world what America should have been all along but finally have arrived at. And Godspeed to each of you.

Sunday, January 11, 2009